Several years ago we wrote about Hailey's hospital visit and the recurrence of her illness. Last Thursday, she fell ill again and has been deteriorating quickly. With the loss of her lower body muscles, continued fever, and significant decrease in appetite, it's quite obvious that overall she is far from being her happy, jovial self. It feels like I'm in a horrible nightmare and can't wake up. You know.... the nightmare you're having that you're falling, but you suddenly wake up? I've been dreading the final decision to let her to go to the Rainbow Bridge.
The vet is in agreement with me, as she has not improved, but seriously worsened since Sunday. I know the vet already foresaw this coming, but knew I needed to mentally grasp the decision on my own. I cannot stop crying. My heart is heavily dispirited. Aching. Breaking. Shattering into a zillion teeny pieces. In my heart of hearts, I know I need to be very unselfish and allow my baby to run free without any pain. I've prayed and prayed. I have asked God to please put my heart at ease, as I know this is what is best for my precious Hailey. It breaks my heart to see her this way, but as some of us have faced before, we know when we arrive at this moment in time and we begin to question oneself with "is she better off going to the Rainbow Bridge?" Then we know what the decision is.
The vet is in agreement with me, as she has not improved, but seriously worsened since Sunday. I know the vet already foresaw this coming, but knew I needed to mentally grasp the decision on my own. I cannot stop crying. My heart is heavily dispirited. Aching. Breaking. Shattering into a zillion teeny pieces. In my heart of hearts, I know I need to be very unselfish and allow my baby to run free without any pain. I've prayed and prayed. I have asked God to please put my heart at ease, as I know this is what is best for my precious Hailey. It breaks my heart to see her this way, but as some of us have faced before, we know when we arrive at this moment in time and we begin to question oneself with "is she better off going to the Rainbow Bridge?" Then we know what the decision is.
I will hold my precious baby girl in my arms. Comfort her. Tell her how very blessed I am to have been rescued by her. Thank her for all the unconditional love, hugs and kisses that she has always shown me. She was there for me both times I received my diagnoses. This will be a furever pain in my heart. I am not looking forward to later this morning when we take the final ride together and I wish her lots of love as she approaches the Rainbow Bridge.
Please everone, let's all put our paws together and send many pawyer's for Hailey to have a quick, happy and sunny bright welcome as she begins her journey over the Rainbow Bridge, later today.
Just having to put all this into perspective, I know it's the best decision for her, although not for me. Thank you each and every pedi and furbaby who befriended us through the blogging years. You have no idea how thankful I am knowing you will all be here with unconditional love and support.
With much love, hugs & smoochies!
With much love, hugs & smoochies!
XOXOXO
Hailey's mom
We were so very sad to read this and know that this is the hardest decision for a pet parent to make. Know that you are in our thoughts and prayers Miss Hailey, run free pretty girl.
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Dory and her Mama
I am brokenhearted knowing that you had to help Hailey across the bridge today. She and Twix were such pals and I know that Twix was waiting for Hailey when she arrived. I know your pain as reading about sweet Hailey brings back very strong memories. I will be posting something tomorrow that I hope will help a tiny bit. Please know that you are in my prayers.
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Teresa
We just heard from Taffy about Hailey. We didn't know Hailey, but we had to make the decision for our Daisy, today. Just heart breaking, but she's in no pain now. Perhaps she and Hailey are meeting at the bridge. We understand your heartbreak.
ReplyDeleteXXXOOO Bella & Roxy
Taffy told us your baby made her final journey. It is heartbreaking and we miss our furry friends forever. She is running free and thanks you for helping her out of pain.
ReplyDeleteDexter and Mango Momma
We just heard that sweet Hailey was called to Heaven today. Try and take comfort in knowing she is no longer in pain and keep all the wonderful memories of your lives together tucked safely away in your heart. We will be sure to include Hailey in the February edition of "Our Rainbow Friends" that will publish on March 15.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry it was time for your Hailey to cross the bridge. Taffy told us about her. The cost of love is high. Please know that your grief is shared.
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Murphy & Stanley
Just read about this on Taffy's blog and came over to offer our condolences. Run free, Princess!
ReplyDeleteWe read about your sweet Hailey at Taffy's place. Please accept our love and prayers, we know this was a difficult decision, but also a loving gift to your precious girl
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Mr Bailey, Hazel & Greta
We are so sorry to hear about your Hailey. It's so hard to let our precious furkids go. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
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Mitch and Molly
We just heard about Hailey's passing. Mommy had to let her Samantha go 9 years ago and it still hurts but it was the right thing to do. We know that Hailey is running free and strong at the bridge with my brother Weenie and all the others that left us to soon.
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We came to paw our sympathy and offer soft, calming husky wooooos,
ReplyDeleteRA, Isis & Nanük